nth special ...jst wanna upload some photo of this year to show a happy ending for my 2010 year~ pretty year for me~ muackx... love my 18 years old~ ^^

2010年最后的一章

现在是2010年12月31日的凌晨五十二分钟，在这想要把这一年发生的事回顾一下下。年头里，我还在浑浑噩噩的渡过前两个月，当我踏入三月时，碰到了他。刚开始我们就读同样的学院，还记得他第一次开口问我是“ 你是搭火车回家的吗？” 就这样我们开始一起回家，一起聊天，也因为功课关系交换了电话。不知道为什么我们的话题那是总是那么的一致，我们经历的那些曾经也那么的一致。也因为那样，我们话题越来越多~开始关心彼此。。。 为了进军营，我没有在那读书了。还记得在军营里，发生了很多事情也认识了很多朋友。还记得有一天真的闷到发疯，拨了电话给他，他明明就睡着了，但是还是接了我的电话。两个人聊了整整一个晚上，我也觉得自己吵到别人了~ 哈哈~！！！

过了不久我也在军营申请出来，因为不是很喜欢那里的生活。真的有点公主病哈哈~！也因为成绩的关系，爸爸必须要我读中六，也就是大三。我为了这件事闷了好久，但是就是没办法也没则所以必须服从爸爸~><就读回以前的那间中学，也因为那样我又恢复了以前穿着校服的日子。唯一不同的是，我开始自己开车去学校~ 还记得我们的开始也来自于电话。那是他追我好久好久，也曾吃了我的闭门坑很多次。但是也就因为他的恒心，我们每天都有通电话，也在我露营时，答应了他的最求。不记得那是他第几次的追求了，但是很佩服的是，他很有决心而且每次不管我再怎样拒绝还是苦苦的等着~！还记得在一起的日子是6月26日~

我们都是不服输的种类，但是为了我他总是迁就着。过不久我也跟家人去了台湾旅行~回来就考试，成绩虽然真的很不好，但是也因为那样我觉得我必须开始读书~

到了十二月我也跟家人去了韩国旅行，我真的超级爽的。一年里出国两次~ 哈哈~ 开心的很~！！！十二月也就是姐姐的婚礼~ 忙得一团乱~ 但是顺利的把这忙乱的婚礼完成了~ 哈哈~ 姐的婚礼我是她的伴娘，也就因为那样，我没得吃~总忙进忙出的~ 累死了~ O(∩_∩)O哈哈~

开心的~在这半年里陪伴我~ 我们两个虽然不是每天可以见面。但是我们都很有信心~ 不希望会像别人说的那样~远距离就会很难维持~！！！

开心的一年，因为今年里我放弃了一个人，但是也因为那样我和他在一起了~ 我觉得不后悔也觉得我的决定是对的~ 不知道为什么就是开心~ 也因为这年里好事终是不停的发生吧~ 出了两次国~别以为我很富裕~其实我不有钱~ i'm poor girl~今年拥有了自己的车，自己的电脑，自己的相机~ 哈哈~ 满足满足~！！！

明年又要再更努力了~！！！ 明年的目标要更好~！！！
next year to do list & target~!!!

1. result atleast want got 3.00~
2. saving money must got RM 2000
3. every exam must pass without fail~
4.plan everything smoothly without sudden work again
5. change my own I-Phone~
6. Go trip with my darl~XD * wait darl do it for me*
7. no more overnite job and must sleep at 11 * if no exam*
8. before June need to cover everything and did my prepare work~
9. on September must start my prepare job for STPM~!!!
10. Good luck for my hubby and me for our EXAM~!!!

HUBBY 加油咯~！！！ 我们要一起加油哦~ 你答应过的，记得要兑现哦~！！!

没有丑陋的女生，只有懒惰的女生~
最近又发了神经~ 哈哈^^ 稍微有痘痘就看是紧张兮兮起来~
害怕…… 但是严谨起来也是对自己好罢了~

今天一整天都提不起经~ 可能真的太累了~ 觉得累到不行~！！！

kite will fly over the sky ~
pull it tight but let it fly~
tight but not hard~
hard will lose~ tight will save~
everything will be save it u knw the technique~

anything will be allright~ let v save the time and done everything that worth~

sot post

this the pic for you^^ o(n (o.o) n)o hehe~

what's a nice day,early in the morning after wake just head up for a series movie~watch till vry syok~ ^^ after it just walk out and get a meal~ after it than head to saloon with my darling mummy and my darl sis~ v go saloon together and total spend around 400++~ i re bonding and sis with mum is go cut and dye their pretty hair~ XD hahaXD~*sound bad* but really looks nice~

anything was so peacefull~ and feel happy bcus having webcam with my darl for whole hour~ v two laugh non-stop~!!! hahaXD...
dunno why just feeling to blog sum nonsense here~ get to wish my darl will see this sot post~!!!
sorry readers for read tis baka post~ hahaXD

nite lor~ CIAO~!!! and wish my pig non that pig for today~!!!

my darl~pls read this~ XD*rmb read all *

处女座

代表人物：《圣斗士星矢》

沙 加 完美是处女们的魔咒 处女们是上帝创造的谦虚认真的典范。他们凡事都认真较劲，对完美的追求无以复加，有时候甚至会因此而着魔疯狂。 其实追求完美是一般人的自我完善过程，也许每个人都会觉得，其实我也很追求完美啊！但是，常人的追求完美的心态同处处相比，程度差异还是比较大的。 旁人很难想象处女座对完美追求的程度。 而事实上，有许多完美的境界也确实很难达到，所以这让处女们显得郁郁寡欢。即使在旁人眼中的她或他已经相当完美，但是在处处们的眼中，自己与自己的标准依 然相去甚远。 所以他们对人总是谦虚的，低调的，他们对所作的一切总是精益求精的，不能允许些许的疏忽。因为他们深深觉得，自己离自己的目标永远都那么远，所以再怎么厉 害的处女都显得谦虚。 许多人在跟处处恋爱后都会面临进退两难的窘境，因为他们会突然发现无论他们怎么表达爱，处处们仍然觉得他们不可靠。 这也许是因为处女善于对心爱的人挑剔。 在这里要先说明一下，彬彬有礼的处处对一般人都非常友好，从不随意挑剔别人，但是对心爱的人，他们的标准却完全不同。不信，处处可以扪心自问。 在正式恋爱后，处处们会一改一开始同他们相处的甜蜜浪漫，而开始逐渐变得神经质，碎碎唸……他们开始挑剔爱人的审美品位，并且对爱人的举动都感到不满或者 不够，更开始对爱人的一切举动都充满怀疑，他们对爱人时时刻刻怀揣试探和疑问，常常莫名其妙的提出同你分手，让你无所适从，甚至难以相处……最后逼得你几 乎要退却离开，但是且慢！现在的你却无论如何不能退却或离开。 为什么呢？因为处处们的这些表现，原因竟是——他或她越来越爱你！ 处女是带着“为别人服务”精神降生的一群人。有些处女几乎天生就属于神，而不属于任何人。

从 小，他们就一直以乖巧聪明的姿态出现，从不让爸妈操心，独当一面，处处为别人考虑，一生都在付出。 人付出必然要求回报，但处女们，对回报，却只需要爱情作为补偿。 所以在爱情上，他们要的也比常人来得更多。 所以，处处的爱人们不要在意处女们的不安＆焦灼，这一切只是起源于他们爱你，希望你给他们足够的爱与安全感。 所以，当你通过了这些考验后，你就会拥有一个天下最完美的爱人。 因为他们对你死心塌地，不顾一切，那种幸福保准让你无法想象。 表象的坚强真实的脆弱 处女座是习惯独自面对寂寞冷清却一定把微笑展现给别人的人。

处女座是习惯独自面对寂寞冷清却一定把微笑展现给别人的人。 在人前他们彬彬有礼，纯情优雅，坚强细致，一副天下重任一肩挑的样子，但是人后，他们很可能脆弱的躲在被窝里偷偷哭泣；其实他们并没有看起来那么坚强冷静笃定，但是他们善于伪装的很坚强，很独立。

处 女们天生就有做一个典范的决心。他们在所有人面前都要表现出那副理想状态，他们希望自己完美，而一直不由自主的力图在往那个方向靠近。 所以处女们其实也有脆弱的一面，他们独立自强，却有着一颗纯洁易感的心。 容易成功也容易走近死胡同 处女当中非常多成功者。 因为他们做事为人精益求精，对待工作认真负责，以天下事为己任，仔细且一丝不苟。 他们的优点真是太多，他们长于精细的思考和计算，天生都有灵巧的手和精确的大脑。 和一个处女在一起生活也很快乐，因为几乎可以什么都不要考虑，他们会事无巨细为你打造好一切。

但 是，问题是处女们自己总是感到不快乐。因为他们总是觉得事情可以做的更好一些，却总是没有能够，所以他们总是容易悲观，感到失望。 其实，说到底，处女们的敌人就是他们自己。 如果他们能够学会知足常乐，能够认识到不完美也是一种福气的话，也许他们的人生会更加多姿多彩，不仅成功，而且快乐。

水瓶座

代表人物：《圣斗士星矢》冰河 和我弟弟肥羊

几 乎每个水瓶座的心底都有着一段刻骨铭心的记忆，一个永远无法忘记的背影。 那也许只是极其短暂的两情相悦，或只是一种单恋，或只是存在于虚幻空间。 一切看起来是那么平静，那么和谐。 没有惊天动地，没有海誓山盟，没有花前月下，没有浪漫，没有誓言，没有温度。水瓶座的理智和冷漠，注定了任何感情永无燃点。

水 瓶座不容易喜欢上一个人。有人说水瓶座对伴侣的要求太高，其实并非这样，水瓶座注重的是感觉。只是那么轻描淡写的一眼，那个人已经吸引了水瓶的所有注意 力，从此目光便无法转移。 用一秒钟爱上一个人，然后再付出一生去忘记，水瓶座就是这样的试验品。 但几乎所有的水瓶都会否认在自己的身上发生一见钟情，因为他们一向自视清高，承认爱上一个人这种事似乎是在侮辱自己的智商。 更多的时候是因为，连自己都没发现已经爱上。

水瓶座很多时候对于感情反应非常迟钝，迟钝到每 次都是最后的知情者。有时容易出现弄不清自己的感觉，不清楚自己想做什么，觉得迷惘。 在对方没有非常明确地表示感情时会退怯，觉得爱情是两厢情愿，不想勉强对方。 显得很被动，忽冷忽热，犹豫不决，极其矛盾。在没有完全确定前，决不轻易付出感情，因为怕失去。也许是缺乏安全感，也许是对自己的保护，也可以算作是一种 自私。

一般水瓶座的好朋友都是经过很长时间的考察的，不仅仅是几年，而是十几年。一旦被水瓶 座当作好朋友的，会赴汤蹈火掏心掏肺。 在公车上，街边，商场，水瓶老是认错人。在茫茫人海中，始终在寻找一个熟悉的身影，直到产生幻觉。 这一刻，水瓶座突然很想痛哭流涕，因为突然发现自己几近疯狂的爱上一个人，失去了理智，失去了自我。这种突如其来的感觉，很恐惧，很无助。

水 瓶座在人前总是一幅无忧无虑没心没肝的样子，不想别人看见自己的悲伤，那样会有不安全的感觉，总是在无人的地方暗自落泪。 尽管水瓶座装着多么不在乎，看都不看一眼。可是对方说的每句话都从耳朵进去，没见出来。对方提的任何过分的要求，水瓶座统统照单全收、精心尽力，绝对不会 有半个不字。完全成为一个爱情的奴隶，脸上还装酷无表情，整个死要面子活受罪。 这种情况下，如果对方使点阴谋诡计，刻意疏远避而不见或是视而不见，电话不接或是哼哈敷衍等等，水瓶会给整疯了，开始会想是什么自己地方做错了，说错话 了，然后拉下面子主动讨好试探。不用多，碰壁两次，水瓶座就会有自知之明了，不会再去想是为什么会这样，也不想知道了。心里会想，原来是对方讨厌自己，不 想见到自己。然后就是绝对的安静了。 这还没完，过了一段日子。对方如果突然又改变态度，水瓶座竟然能既往不咎问也不问，殷勤依旧，完全没有尊严可谈。只要能和对方开心的在一起，过去不重要， 未来也不重要，面子不重要，金钱不重要，时间不重要，自己也不重要。 天平失衡，感情重重的压在心底，自己却飘在了半空。太在乎对方，迷失了自我，幸福也变得虚无。 自己都不爱，谁还会珍惜。

水 瓶座一旦付出，便是彻底，不可收回。感情投入的越多越是伤的重。 最擅长的是难为自己。不想对方难过，只好让自己难过。总是认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力，把自己想得太坚强，而把别人想得太脆弱。不知道，受伤的其实是自 己，只是不知道如何表现出来。 爱，这个字对水瓶座来说，太沉重珍贵了，无法用语言诠释。一旦说出口，犹如远古的文物，被发掘出土，暴露于空气中，变得面目全非，失去本来的价值。 所以，不轻易说。 只需一次，水瓶座便把一生的精力耗尽，只因执著，便落得伤痕累累。那段感情如强酸腐蚀着那颗麻木的心，穿了一个洞，再也无法弥补。时间是世界上最有力的矬 子，把空洞的毛边渐渐抚平，不再割人。每当寒风吹过，犹闻隐约凄凉的萧萧声，似挽歌。 只需一次，水瓶座便不再幻想，于是狠狠将自己摔碎，拒绝熔化拼凑。因为怕熔了记忆，怕熔了那个远远的背影，怕熔了自己千年的期盼。

之后，水瓶座依然谈笑风生，依然开朗豁达，继续着一段接一段的新感情，重复着一切，因为无法承受寂寞。 人们都说水瓶花心，见一个爱一个，水瓶座会哈哈一笑，说“哪有？冤啊！”。其实心里在滴着血，脸上却笑的灿烂，安慰自己“我是谁啊！哪会那么弱呢！”

当 看到一个瓶子在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时，请千万不要被迷惑，水瓶总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与悲伤。其实并不像看到的那么快乐，同样的，也不像看到的那么悲 伤。只是悲伤时，喜欢带上快乐的面具，而当水瓶快乐时，悲伤又不肯轻易放过。如此的义无反顾，是什么让水瓶变得如此忽冷忽热捉摸不定，谁才能体会水瓶的坚 强只是竭力掩饰的脆弱。 星相上说，水瓶座往往不被所爱的人珍惜。我想，是为什么呢？也许答案就在心中，只是水瓶座的本性不愿承认而已。 水瓶座除了需要一个深爱自己包容一切的人以外，还需要一个心理医生。这话有道理，希望所有的看到此文的水瓶座兄弟姐妹们不要捶我。 这就是水瓶座可笑却笑不出的悲哀。

the last month of 2010

"winks" so fast v hv step into the last month of 2010 edi~ "clap my hand as out as i can" i did my bravely job to join into form 6 life and get my study stress study life go on~hahaXD many change on this whole year~ by the way i quite appreciate this year bcus there many thing have change mylife and that's really effect my future also~ hahaXD... happy on getting my life so peace full and wish my dream cum true~!!!

time fly so fast... year end dah~ sis wedding is cuming lor~...
many stuff hav to bz and my korea trip is still doubting bcus of the stupid WAR~
haiz...i wanna go Korea~!!! sound so stupid,ppl having war and i still wanna go there~
who cares??? hahaXD... i promise i wun die at there geh~ bcus i got my skill~ ngek ngek~!!!

that's been a long time i did not post anything with using english~so sorry to my beloved english i feel strange using U in my blog~ so now i am trying my best to using u as my beloved languages to complete my post again^^.Nowadays many thing have been happen on this stupid holiday!sound so pity,but the facts is more pity~!!! stress is still imminent in my stupid life and problem of trouble is pop out without any symbol or warning~ Appreciate all those supporting gang,because u guys really pay many effort to support US~...haha yalah is us because the problem have been involved me and my woman (punani)~ seriously we really totally give up on caring this stupid problem anymore~although we know it's hard to find out the solution to solve it~so better leave it and let everything be peace after it~ no matter how,what the one want to do or want to speak out loud to let the whole world know.We have no that right to stop you .So,LET U BE~SERVE IT???.... in the conclusion for us...the problem have SOLVED because we did not have those United State time to care your stupid doubt and those thinking~...let it be~ hahaXD

just set my darl right because not everyone got that opportunity to let us serve them right! we aren't the judges~ we could not be judged who wrong and right.But the only thing we can do,we'll serve ourselves right and that's no need relying on people and doesn't means we need to explain to the whole world how right we are and how innocent we having~ MIND SET~!!! dun care dun see dun hear dun bother~ because that's not the big Deal in my life~ my life is happy ,study ,play ~!!! hahaXD unbeliveable i written my life have been included STUDY~ walao! * clap clap* proud to myself to wrote this out~ haha...

Six Form life is a weirdo burden~ normally when u speak about form six~ people will say "walao,why you choose the most stress course in the pre-u?" by their hunch! did u guys think that's really i choose it? hahaXD...no one will choose this kind of life if we having other choices~ i could not imagine i really did my right to study in this holiday.I TOUCHED MY ACCOUNT BY TODAY~ haha... wrote it as big as i can bcus i really proud to say it out i wanna serve it down and score as high as i can~ envy those classmate to put so many effort and glade to them bcus their result really good ~ this world that's nth is consider as FREE~ everything also need the PAY~ now i really PAID my words to serve myself in the right road on this holiday and get my study down^^


P.S" baby mickey and minnie~ ♥♥♥ hello, i'm not childish i just love it,because they really very cute ~ i love the cute cute laXD...but dun mistaken i doesn't love PINK color at all~ so stop asking me about my favourite color isn't pink?...ish... is SKY BLUE~!!! DUMBO ><... haha.... ♥♥♥

文字的吻~

今天不想上传照片就单单的用文字倾谈这一切。

最近面临了一些友谊问题，是否自己也有错呢？自己太小气了吗？在检讨别人之前是否检讨自己先呢？每次都会面临那样的问题，知己真的只有那几位了，我的姐妹们...我承认我是小气鬼，爱哭鬼，爱闹鬼。。。哪有怎样？ 你自己也是那样~其实不是很想再去理会，可是你可否知道呢，你的一句一动就在对全世界大声的嚷着是我们的问题~原本我真的懒的理会了，就算全世界都误会都好。我已懒的去解释，可是你却信息我们了~ 我想每个人都明白，我们心里的刺永远都会存在了~勉强再这样下去只会让我们变得更加的伪装更加的伤害彼此。。。虽然真的不希望没有了一位朋友而多一位敌人，可是我想要你明白我们没有把你当透明人和敌人，只是纯粹的回到那个普通朋友罢了~ 想说的就那么多，我们就只能这样~ 我们不曾投诉过什么，但是现在希望你再想清楚，如果你要变回以前那样，你觉得真的行的通吗？。。。看开点~

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晚霞里，微风轻轻的飘过一阵阵回忆的味道，那是的我是那么的天正。感觉没有什么事是解决不了的，小学就是一个顽皮鬼，爱闹，爱粘在书桌前但是不是读书，每天在学校里总是嘻嘻哈哈的把时间过完。到了中学，就慵懒了起来，每当起床都变得懒~ 真的变得好多哦~想念着以前总嚷我成绩一定要考好，每天十点就该爬上床，每天都要把功课写完，看电视只可以看两小时的伯母。。。秒针在时钟里嘀嗒嘀嗒的响着，时间过得好快…… 你已在快乐世界六年了。。。每当年尾就特别想念你。。。><...你的味道仿佛是晚上的气息，让我真的忍不住眼泪~ 三不五时的嚷着要你无时无刻在我身旁，小时候总害怕的说没有你我该怎样？没有人再照顾我了><爱粘着你睡，害怕每天醒来嚷着伯母是总没有人答复我。可是没有你的生活我过了六年了~ 你生病时，原谅我不曾去医院探望过，因为年纪还小，堂姐，爸妈总不给我去~ 还记得你手术完毕时在家休养时，我还帮你按摩~ 在你二度进医院时，我真的很怕。。。没有人陪我，没有人理我~ 每次都乖乖待在客厅等着大人们在医院里跑回来休息再问他们，你怎么了~ 我变得爱哭了，爱闹鬼~ 就希望可以把你闹回来~ 我们都很想你~ 伯母，是你叫我写字，穿衣服，拿筷子，乖乖的~ 我顽皮就会骂和打~ 但是为什么我现在哪样，你都不在回来打呢？ 看不到你最后一脸，真的很心痛，这六年里，也许只有你懂，每次扫墓我都会偷偷在抹眼泪。每次堂姐就会说我为什么上香给你我会那么久，一定是在跟你投诉~ 我不是，你知道的我很怕一个人，我跟你说的一切你听到吗？ 每一次，都逼自己别去想那么多~ 可是，心里真的很怕~ 以前你会听我说我的事情，现在~ 谁可以聆听？谁会帮我想点子解决？我还乖乖保存着你生病还连夜赶给我的水晶手链~ 你说你害怕送不到给我，最后你完成了~ 我的手腕越来越大。戴不下了~ 就只能好好留着~ 还记得，当我接到电话是哭了好久好久~ 六年了， 伯母，你过的好吗？ 你答应过会保护我的，别反口好吗？

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痛疼了，每次都那样~ 真的好想大病一场~ 有人说，爱情是一道很难的数学题，如果你不努力的去解题，你永远都得不到你想要的爱情~ 其实有没有想过为什么别人可以幸福到老，而自己的感情却断断续续呢？ 没有一个人是十全十美的，爱上了，就必须努力维持~ 我希望我这次努力的解题，可以找到正确的答案。 不想再错了~ 期望，你和我想法会一样~ 我的猪~ 累了。。。zzzZZZZ

love,equal to what? feeling? or stand the other that's will together and accompany you forever?
今天又是烦闷的一天，补习真的让我觉得很烦闷……假期的每一天感觉都要在补习中心里度过~真的很糟糕~
天没有不散的云，人没有不散的睡意。每一天唠叨的一切总是无法兑现我期望的一切，然而烦闷的一天还是必须这样度过~ 》。《
功课多到爆~！！！ 真的很想把自己关闭在一个空间里，然后什么也不理。好好的睡觉~

我要去逛街~！！！ 我要去旅行~ 我要我要~！！！
今天要开始敢完功课，然后享受我的韩国假旅~ ^^

高三和高二的同学们，加油咯~ 明天就是你们注定一生的重要考试~
加油加油~ 希望你们可以拿到你们想要的成绩~

以下是一些小小故事，让你们轻松一下~ 看了再慢慢读吧~
还有BE看看吧， 舒缓你的心情~

P:S :"老公照顾好自己哦~，这几天你一定累坏了~ 照顾好自己哦~想你 ”

me & karrman~ shopping day at Sunway with yen~

每当自己起床时，记忆便模糊的在让我想要拥有以前那自由的早晨。但仿佛阳光就不曾出现在夜晚的天空中，我必须乖乖的爬起床来应付我不想那样过的每一天。但是开心的事，也在每天早晨里给了我，我慢慢的习惯地在美梦里有一个声音每天都准时的把我乖乖的从美梦里慢慢敞开眼睛去接受那刺眼的阳光。假期里那声音便会把时间调到迟些，好让我在美梦里再待多一会儿。…………………………

be good on enjoying all the giving from hubby,normally i really wish i won't awake from this kind of sweet dream.This few day really feel so embarrassment to face the fact, but human should life in reality instead of live themselves on dreaming world.Stress really the one of factor i should face to improve my result.This kind of factor is imminent and i just getting wish of i really can did it as well.
"Home sweet home"... this words wasn't totally us in my life...
home giving me more pressure~
their love their care their everything...
although there is really for my own good~
curb the stress curb my study mood~ ^^

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really feel tire right nw... no mood on blogging right nw~
let be my journal turn off and get a nice dream~
will be update soon~XD

trip & exam~

不知道是不是自己在疑神疑鬼~终觉得最近都很不顺~讨厌这样吓猜的生活~

心情很复杂……妈妈也开始不开心~花费太大了？
也许吧，我们在台湾真的买了好多东西~衣橱快装不下了~T_T
刚旅行完，我们就开始忙考试了。。。

真的很不爽……考试真的把我如此美好的心情已经拉到蓝色地带了~
每天不会下着一样雨量的雨,每天不会有不见天日的太阳~
我必须开始读书了~考试期间，真的感觉自己发疯似的……
除了大考以外，我真的没有那么神经质过~
真的花了整整一天没有睡觉来读~
结果~哈哈~周公的儿子因为不开心我没有找他下棋~
成绩真的一团糟~妈妈真的快拿我没办法~

心情就是那么不开心了~……某人开始让我觉得厌倦~
他又在忙，我知道他的压力太大了~所以为了别让他再觉得困扰~最好就别烦他~^^

我真的很困扰~心情反反复复的终觉得好像有东西在困扰着似的~
成绩一落千丈~尽然语文课可以那么好~反而数学就烂到屁那样~><
“哭包” 这个名词真的还离不开我~他依然那么叫我~

时间是如此的一点一滴流失着，手里握着的一切会如此的实际。每个人拥有自己的故事，而我的故事里都想要逃避那些不想要的东西，天亮了我必须回到现实面对那些不愉快的东西~人生的脚步是如此的重要，一步走错了，就会在心理留下永久的伤口~伤口是否痊愈就只能够看本人如何去面对去解答这些难题~如今手里握着的幸福，快乐，还有那些小小权利是否都是实际呢？我真的很怕~ 我又走错又踏错脚步~
希望自己不会再像以前那样了~XD

P:S { 下星期可以拥有自己的车了，虽然是姐姐的旧车，但是也算只属于我的车^^}

疑惑~

时间的流失让我感觉彷徨了~
我对不起他，宝宝~
我今天怀疑他了，因为某些原因~
但是最后我发觉因为我的多心也伤害了他~
我很想知道为什么他会那么不开心，希望你真的会告诉我~
不管什么事，我是否会帮上忙~我都想永远在你旁陪伴~

朋友，说词是那样，但是当中拥有什么意义呢？
我不曾那么不开心~我有的是什么？
我拥有的已经足够~我不想多说什么~
我要的很简单，就是那样开开心心的，可以聆听的一些~
我， 缝口以沉默~没有什么可以说得~

就快要考试了~害怕~
如果不再读书真的是~ 才子布巾， 包书（输）

我想要陪伴他左右~开心永远陪着他~

中秋节快乐~
今年很特别的提早庆祝了很多~

哈哈~因为本小姐和朋友们提早一个礼拜庆祝了~
一群所谓十八和十九岁的“小朋友们”在公园里玩到午夜~
其实蛮经典的事~接近十二点多时，有一辆警车在巡逻~
哈哈~一大堆人在细声细语的在谈话~也叫那些没带身分证的先“跑路”哈哈~
最后只是白担心一场~XD

给老公的~心型~^^

此外为了庆祝堂姐结婚十周年~
我们去了Tenji~
哈哈~当然是有人请我!我的钱所剩无几了啦~
照片照片照片~

每次的必须~哈哈~

我的小傻婆~小女儿~

哈哈~本家的小少爷~( 在帮Tenji打广告~)

我们两位大小姐~XD

最后最后~我的自恋女儿~ 哈哈~美吧~我的小公主~哈哈~

this few weeks is keep packing and busy on those red-tapes that celebrate our school

Girl Guides 21st Anniversary~

bravo~ i join this since form 1... somehow i join this bcus of my sis~

begin of the year she keep nag and keep push me join this stuff~

the life of guiding is fun~ and u get to learn hw to be more independent at society~

smile~ fun~ view the positive point~ be group work~

help each other and solve the problem by own ~

^^

2009 graduate student~ haha~ XD * Hannah,Yen & me *


*Toh Mama, Senior & Junior*
*soh poh gang over here*

*2004 till 2009 company leader all here~ with those member *
*glad to see knw each other for so long ^^ *

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i just turn out my photo gallery from my phone~

and i just realize many photo haven uploaded to my belove blog~

muahahahaha~

this the photo i went to the Toilet-Bowl Restaurant ( Sg.Wang)!

chocolate ice cream~ yummy~^^

ice lemon tea~ haha~

that's the herb soap~ a chicken in a bath tub~ ^^

最近的我~变得开始沉默了~
但是在一些人面前就变得开始苦说心事了~

他真的开始在茫茫人海当中找到了我~
他是那么容易就进入我的思想了~他为什么就那么容易知道我在做什么？
我真的开始觉得~
某些事某些人~是我人生里不可缺少的~
也是他们让我明白~
有些事~有些人~根本不用太在意~
平常心就好了~别人怎么想都无关紧要~

他买给我的猪猪* 真的很像他哦* XD

在书展买了三本书~很喜欢~ 开心开心的~

我又可以做回自己了~

尝试看这些书~感觉很特别~

Cecelia Ahern~ 这本书我想买很久了~因为家里太多书~妈妈一直念~
现在我终于买到了~XD

the love book~ finally i get it^^

in the end~.. that the recent me ><...
pop out many pimples...sob sob~...
i need take care take care jor~ ^^

夜空~

假期了，今晚的夜空真的格外的热。
突然间就想起了一些令人懊恼的事情~
男生们，你们的绅士风度在那呢？最近朋友都面临问题。。。
而我，身为旁观者那就不太方便开口说些什么。
但是如果那些小小误会你不去问或了解清楚就出口伤人~未免也太过分了。。。

爱情，这两个字可以把它拆开来看。
“爱”这个字，有很多方面，家人的，朋友的，爱人的，社会的，自己内心的。
但是记得爱这个字也该保护自己的自尊~
每个人都是需要有自己的自尊的，自尊是自己给自己的~
“面子是人家给的， 架是自己掉的”~
爱情当对方开始攻击对方时，那么真的是爱情吗？

这懊恼的事情也让我觉得有点开心。。。
幸好，老公仔不是那么的对待我，虽然我和他不是每天见面~
但是我们都很开心~我不希望他会想那个人那样~
也可怜朋友，觉得她真的很受伤~

独自一人观赏的夜空~真的很寂寞~

他，不在这， 真的很担心他~
每一次我闹时，幸好有他~
我感谢他给我的那一个生日礼物~* 喜欢*

me me me~!!!

i'm a ordinary 18 years old girl,would like to say hi to everyone and thanks for enjoying my emo blog~ times are running so fast.I can not even accept the fact that's i'm is at the lower six now to having my STPM ( A-level ) study~as everyone know studying form six is not that easy and i stressed myself much on study also~ sound silly on heading myself towards stress is better than no stress~ i knw that is weird but stress is the affect that can effect me to study hard on it~I trying to be more independent. Everyone told me that i like to depend on something and i would can't live without something~ Everygirl having their own life, every one can say hi to any stranger also.Just depends on they willing to be more initiative anot only~ glad to say i having the sweet now is much more different with other and my past.Thanks the one who willing to giving the sweet to me.On other hand, thanks alot to the one who let me know about that person well~ Is really not worth to pay my attention on those silly stuff.I smile is not depend on who , my mood won't ruining down because of who again~ In the hand i just need to stand strong and say " I AM NOT THE GIRL U CAN IMAGINE~!!!" it with loud and i would like to change ur mind about me~ u is just the past~ my life is much more happy without ruining down my mood by stupid stuff now~ ^^ 40++ days more... Taiwan i'm cuming~... beside of it i heading to Bangkok also~ muahahahaha~... the shopaholic me sure buy alotz of thing~ that's cant imminent~ and i would like to buy myself a camera~... i should buy it b4 i heading to the trip~ i wish to snatch more nice nice photo to let my sweet see~ ^^

轰轰烈烈的爱情仿佛像一个燃烧着的蜡烛~
蜡烛刚点燃时是那么的美艳照亮着大地~但是这美艳的火~终是经不起考验~

微风轻轻吹过~他的美艳也出现了瑕疵~

看着身边的朋友一个个的不开心~心里很不是滋味~
微笑是那么的做作~

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side by side~ times running fast and fast!
i'm off of time already,but what u respect i doing right nw?
* yupS~ i am blogging right nw and leave my hmwrk aside~ *
my blog is so death ~ so trying to post up some post to relive my blog~
form 6 life is so stressfull! can't imminent the load of work is freaking big~
no entertainment at all~ if need entertain just can call he up for sum joke~
but...sadly to say he is sick right now~
my entertainment will totally gone~

为什么会那么安静~？
因为我无言~
我闭起眼睛，因为我不想回想那些不好的回忆~
他，是我唯一~
爱他~

每个人都有自己的人生旅途~是否精彩就得看自己如何在自己生命里填上适当的颜色~

很想他~
希望宝贝能够赶快好起来~
原本很想写一些东西的~可是~ 懒惰了~
很晚了，但是睡不着~想他~
今晚,是我第一晚和他在一起后没有联络他~
不想打扰他~但是我很想他~

还是乖乖睡觉比较好吧~怕他会生气~
P/S: 希望他可以看到~XD

thousand angels around u~

影子在心头上悄悄的划上了一个小小图案~
仔细一看~有一个小小的爱心图案……是你吗？那个给我温暖的影子~

繁忙的都市，每个角落充满了愤怒，喜气，淘气，和伤心的气息。蓝蓝的海洋染上了人们的烦恼，无比遥远的蓝色天空也被厚厚的雾遮盖了~我看不到刺眼的阳光，闻不到那个清新的海洋味道。我的世界料如坐在大广场上的小孩，眼泪在眼里慢慢的滑落，因为找不到自己的妈妈~我的笑容呢？一天比一天的觉得疲惫，一天比一天来得更糟~好想他可以在我前方帮我推开一切烦恼~
鼻头酸酸的，眼睛重重的，笑容勉强的~只有他，知道我有多么累~推开了窗口我的世界在于一片黑暗的世界中，但是每当我很想哭泣时，手头上的电话终会传来我安慰我的信息及来电。是他，又让我笑会~每次都是这样……他终是可以带我离开烦恼。 就算就那么的一下下。怀念着阳光照耀着大大面的镜子，外头的刺眼阳光在为镜子里头的女生给与她最大的鼓励~在拼命排练就为了满足自己还有希望自己可以在舞蹈内忘记烦恼的一个女孩~

真的很想跳舞去~
可以让我去吗？除此之外，我想好好躺下让我一睡就睡到自然醒~好想~

the recently me~...blurr

당신을 사랑합니다

당신을 사랑합니다
MIN TECK~

means i love you min teck~ ♥♥♥
support ya~ dun think too much~everything will be okie~
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nowadays so in love with korean song~ nice nice nice~
SHINee support they always~
bad luck for this few day~ study study study~ i suppose to study hard instead of thinking so much~
times go and go~ i still enjoying my life without studying~
>< terrible me~ ....
even bebe also complain me no study jor~
cannot cannot edi~ need study jor~ result result ar~....scare~

还有六十三天~期待着那天的到来~但是那是也就是我和他的另一个考验……必须和他失去联络一个星期多~

人们终期待着被人爱,因此他们选择自己想爱的对象来爱~但是你是否发觉~无论对方是否你理想的那一位情人他或她渐渐的会成为你想要的那一个~

成熟的恋爱分为四个阶段~

第一 ( 共存） 第二 （ 反依赖 ） 第三 （ 独立 ）第四 （ 共生 ）^^…………

很多人到第二阶段就会在爱情路上宣布放弃~

很多热恋的情侣在第一阶段就很想每天赖在一起~

到感情就了就会到第二阶段~反依赖~就会想要有自己的私人空间~这也因为恋人间有了变化~

渐渐的他们认为他们不再被重视~这也让他们对自己的另一半起了疑心~

第三阶段~ 独立~这样的感情不会太粘也不会太素~他们拥有着自己的生活~但是也不忘了把自己的另一半也放进了自己的世界~

最近觉得自己不太被依赖~可能我们已经是第二阶段了吧~^^

不知道为什么……心里终是不太舒服~

学业，心情，兴趣，男友真的不可以列为一谈吗？但是我觉得可以~因为他终可以让我笑~

时间走了~我不该这样~但是为什么~我觉得他不在这让我感到那么害怕~

害怕他和他会一样~对他虽有信心~但是心里莫名奇妙的在怕着~

希望考验可以通过~^^ 我在相信着~

Exhibition's Day

"WET WAR" organize by 6R1 SMK Sri Sentosa for Exhibition Day~

woots~ that's the balloons v prepared for today~ so nice ^^ luv it

finally Exhibition's Day was over~ that's will be the freaking tire day for me every year~ Preparation,Process,and Packing time~ so damn tire~ even though today i'm not day workhard as Punani,Eugens,ShedLee,Qian Ning and all those my lovely classmate~ need to apologize i need to run up and down for heading myself for two duty places~ but sorry for Pandu junior that i nt help out much also~ but it's really amazing about u guys can fixed everything within the short time given~

muddy field v have for our Wet War games~despite the muddy field v have is a disgusting place but v having fun of it also~ sure la the dirty is can't imminent edi~ PROFIT PROFIT v need it...so hw dirty v need to face it also^^but for sentosarians i think is sudah biasa,bcus v always having the Raptai for Sport Day at the muddy field every year~

the freaking annoying stuff i faced today~ the LCLY *dog* ... sorry for all those beloved prefect i'm nt going to scold u guys~ but here i feel lik wanna shout out my mad on the study fellow who LCLY over me today~i really x scare Mr.Ong & Mr.Lok ... so u x happy bcus i can talk with them and not scare they? use ur brain~ v're form 6 students,hav been stay over this school more than u~ can u imagine hw many teacher v can friend of? use ur brain and think pls~ satire words pls keep it for urself~ is useless for our form 6 students although u're the next badge of the AJK for 2010/2011~in the end talk with Mr.Lok and get bck the phone~ muahahahahaha XP blek~

drove out for buying stuff with qiqi during 9 in the morning... it's there consider ponteng sekolah? haha nop~ though teacher is saw us dumped into the car.teacher still laugh with us~muahahaha~pergi makan after the Exhibition end~tire tire tire tire~ my bro shoes hav been wrong wear by someone~ his shoes gone = i need to giv he my shoes to wear~ since i stay at the muddy field only~i walk up and down towards the blok A and F without wearing my shoes~ the floor under the hot sun is freaking hot...my leg T.T....nw really vry cham~ need foot massage~ can someone willing to help me?

happy,Tire,Mad,Syok~ everything is get it by today edi~ really a ridiculous day~

story of the day:
nothing much different compare with usual,just the time for me is not enough use only.Screw myself up bcus that the work gonna be done by today.I damn exhausted and i really change my piggy habits.i have change to become more healthy to sleep early and wake up early.Should i thanks for someone to lead me up towards the healthy roads? ngek ngek i think the one will know i talking about who~ homework of they day is not that's much but i will keep it till the last minutes and finished my homework with last minutes hardwork.Cold man~ and the works is consider worse because everything is not under remark and recheckable~ the time was so short...why one day just got 24 hours? that the problem of can't finish up my work.However,my work will build up day by day and it's such like a moutain.hahaha that's cant imminent~bcus i having a lazy habits at all~ Although i promise someone dun to be so~ but finally he have no idea to change me from this also.Because i really hard to convince ~that's totally hard to talk over to change my mind~ stubborn anyway~

tomorrow will be the preparation day for the Hari Pameran.Everything will go on expect i really dunno what should i do for tomorrow.Head on myself on my class game? or go after the Pandu there to lead they up??? i have no any idea of it~ times will show me the way~
should i pay my commitment of doing stuff or helping out on that day? haha... i wun do so~ bcus i really wish i can handle the easy job,instead of leading them and suffering myself~ but i knw i can't be so selfish~ everything having their job~ i can't be so selfish and stand aside without lending out a hand to them~rest and peace~ the day go on by the ending story is... i bumped myself to Mid Valley with cousin and get dinner with they... the car Bumcet infront of my school... screw it up~ i really damn miss the school..i cant imagine i will stay in front of the school during the night...haiz... see hw much i love it....* pui pui pui * haha... finally i learn hw to change the wheel~

这叫兰花~orchids~它是一个有眼睛鼻子的花朵~
哈哈~很多人不懂，兰花里有了一个小人的样貌。留意一看就感觉有一个小天使住在里头。
小时候，我家外就有了浓浓又密密麻麻的盆栽，而且有一棵大大的红毛丹树。这也是为什么人家终说我们家是森林，这么多盆栽里她最爱的就是兰花~所以兰花也是在我家最多的一个花~
紫色，白色，黄色~我家以前都有~哈哈~是她教我如何分辨花的种类~虽然现在都不太记得了~但是兰花我却记得很清楚~除了这些你以前都叫我如何对待那些我不想理的事~但是我觉得我很惭愧~我没有做到之前所答应的事~

兰花不只带给我很好的回忆~也是让我想起你的一个花~

时间过得很快~以前在外头有什么不满不爽的回来就会跟你诉苦一番~然后明天就当作没事~
但是你已不在~我的叛逆行为又回来了~堂姐虽会听我诉苦~但是已经十八岁的我凡事都得自己承受~我不想当你说的“那一个”人……不知道为什么~很多事情我都爱跟你唠叨~虽然你不在了但是我还是有我的方式让你懂~你教我的忍耐，教我如何做好本分~还记得……你在最辛苦时还为我弄一个黄白色的水晶手链~那时的你很消瘦~我们都很怕~得知你不在了我是那么的怕~哭了好久~

事过了六年~我不再是那个小顽童~成绩也不再让你觉得骄傲了~
我的成绩很烂，我没心读，一切都是被逼~但是我也了解你说过我们不可以靠别人~
每次都会哭~但是抱怨的对象不是你了~没有人管得到我读书~因为他们不是你~

nothing much to mention about it~ just let the picture told the story will do~
nowadays freaking tire on preparation on the Hari Pameran~ wish everything cum smoothly and the profit will cum more^^
drive drive drive... today damn bad luck~
why all those guys so like to drive and bully those "P" driver~
bull shit~ but lucky nth happen as well~
ciao liao... nite~ i really sleep early edi... pls human believe of it~
Janice have changed~^^

that day drive go school alone~ lepak until 5 something only bck home~ why mummy will allow?
i really dunno... mummy really set me free.But daddy no~ so many thing happen~should i laugh? cry? mad ?
i really follow my feeling~ i feel wat than i will show wat up~
i really not in the mood now...but bebe lead me up and giving me the confidence to do so~
i get the thing that's really i wish i can be~
tuition tuition tuition~ activites on school~... damn much stuff~ sad~
no time to meet up bebe~
i really wish can meet up one day~ muahahahaha~
but he's a good good boy... he wanna acc family also~ i no choice to do so~T.T

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manything happen in so sudden.Babe and Bebe hands hold tight and and promise stick together forever~
Bebe promise to find Babe after get the license ~ so great Bebe can get his own car after he got the license~
Babe jealous in this blissful and full fill life with his warming family care.Unfortunately i'm nt that lucky than he~
Me and He~ ^^ He and Me... ish~ so sweet~
i bought my Maxis number edi.Seriously i bought it for Bebe~

Seriously i'm nt to show off the blissful i'm having nw~ nt to show out hw good bebe are~
i just wish bebe can stay forever with me~ and he's really different than others~^^
lelelelololo~ ^^bt i cant get the care what i want...
mayb i really is the sticky type~ i wish to stick with bebe always^^
smile smile~ bebe...can i laugh with u always and keep stick with u always?
get ur license and find me k?^^

the sweet 18th of her~

i knw her for 8 years edi~ since primary school until nw~ she's the best sista for me^^


chee chee~ happy birthday~ this year can't celebrate for u~
forgive~ add on * wong jia long never call me up >< screw him up edi~*
anyway... present will sent to u after i buy it...
find one day will bumped to your house~~~

DARLING HAPPY 18 SWEET BIRTHDAY~!!!
DAI GOR LUI EDI~ BE MORE BLISSFUL YA~ BEST WISHES FOR YOU~

dinner with family~

9th of July~ test test wedding dishes for jie wedding~
damn rush for the day.First of all, the first time as couple position meet with bebe.Damn gam gai so hang up with KarrMan that she help me to cut down the stupid feeling ^^..Honestly that day really happy bcus talk alotz and laugh alotz during the the conversation~ karrman say bebe leng zai leh~... dunno ...haha... mayb gua~he really not bad as the picture looks like~ dinner that time keep joke around with family~ Honestly the dishes is damn yummy... especially the abalone~wao... haha... my photo graphing skill damn pro man~...^^

10th of July~ Grandpa's birthday~
early in the morning need to dumped myself towards pandu meeting at school.sadly to say really nt so good,i didn't do the preparation well and that's the point i feel sad on myself also~ NO NEXT TIME~!!! rush home and get a rest... sadly bebe afternoon damn busy~...always cant contact he when he work~ 1st- he really busy..i cannot so selfish~ 2nd- all his family members is around keep spying he~ 3rd- i feel shy and feel gam gai when he told me his whole family knew it~ i really dunno why~... Grandpa birthday~ i drink wine again~ but the stupid wine is really x nice~ but grandpa call us to finish it up~ i this "Bottle Leg" sure cant imminent to help them finish up~ drink alotz~ after it's still go MBO with 2 jie jie, their BF... and youngest bro...
when my bebe can join us to watch movie jek? haha...

that's the story about this two day... homework...* devil screaming* i really hate to do homework... but computer is cant instead everything~... i should do it up without any comment also~ ><

scratch the feeling out~

wondering why the time running so fast,today will be the 12th days v stick together~ and there is the 90 days more i will leave my sweet homeland and bumped into Taiwan for 10 days~ family trip...sound happy.But really wondering about my money, i'm decide to save money for the trip~ but my economy such like water-tap keep ruining out my money ~>< Heavy rain just now,mood feel down in a sudden.Dun know why the screen of some sad memory will keep flash out from my brain and show up in front of me."Watever" that's the word i told myself to chill down from the anger mood.the day have exhausted my mind,i really feel so tire.I'm wondering about some one else bcus the one not going to pick up my call and reply my msg ~
tire and sleepy~ could i sleep instead of running my homework?... i wish too~ the punishment if i didn't did revision and homework is can't imminent~ so i should done everything ~ dun take the risk better...><

the day v publish who v are~

the day v publish out who v are,
first of all v came from different bckground,different family different grown up situation,
but v get to meet in one day ...
and finally the day v publish the relationship between us~
hw the feeling? erm, unexpected family members totally accept he~ except my dad cause never let he knw it yet~
cousin sis agree, mum heard it~ hw a scary news that showing up ...
freaking scare they will reject,But everything going on smoothly~ mayb this will be the right choice i make for this year~

sometimes i really think b4 are the revenge giving by the God? to make me so suffer on they way of my life journey~
looks up to the sky.
there will be more victims showing up on those disaster,
compare with they is hw lucky am i still staying with a whole bunch of sweet and warm with my family and friend all around~
and the lucky one that's i get what i want also~
should i stop nagging around about the thing that i cant get?
think widely. actually i get what i want.I'm just GREEDY only~
who not going to be GREEDY in this world? everyone do~
sometime something really cant be GREEDY~ one is enough!!!
one family, one daddy one mummy~
and one of the loved one~...dun be so greedy~
times show up he is giving me the different care from others~
god bless me...this will be the right~

attitude should change,work still going on, my life cant stick with the " LAZY" word again~
let the work done let everything be more confident let everything become more charming than past~

smile and laugh there bcus of something, not going to publish out the geli stuff~ but i knew someone else will knw that the geli thing should keep as secret~ muahahahahaha~
bye my single life... journey on with in relationship again~ ...

his trust so real~ his care so deep~ his miss so understandable~
everything goes wrong today?
he bz for whole day and i knw i'm disturb his rest time and family time~
he is trying his hard work to make me laugh back~
sorry i knw u tire today~ forgive me~
what's i told ya is true~ dun skip it~ i really telling all the true to ya~

let our story full fill up with sweet not bitter~
sharp my mind bcus have to bcum more selfish on it's
tho the sky are in blue mood~ v will always b apart to cheer each other~
that's what u giving me right now~
can u see it? wish u do so~... promise here~ that no more 2nd time~
wish wish wish wish wish.... u knw i want what right nw~

waiting ur call.... call me ASAP~ ^^

everything nt respected as i need~ no one will knw what's going to happen next moment even though is next second~
nowadays i keep make myself laugh as much as i can,run over the school and get my time pack pack and busy~But actually i need a rest~ a peacefull rest~ i miss the time i hide myself alone~
i knw i can't be so selfish,some words is can't tabulate my mood in my heart~ something really cant explicitly stated out from here~ just he knw~ hw dumb was i'm~ X(

stress are something imminent for me~ so i choose to be the utmost "genius" one~ haha... antonym la~ ^^

the touching way he giving me is let me feel happy,but i realize i'm nt the princess in the end~ everything nt so good~ so everything keep on like this will be the best.SMILE~ that's he called me to do~
i know i cant be the forever shining star as i can~ but believe urself even that is tough u need to get a try also~
improve everything and there will be the good way for ur life~ dun hide a side~ ^^

today damn bore. He not free.I damn free~ so bore~
sometime~ i recall bck everything happen in my life~
i'm nt hate someone. not blaming on some one~
i'm appreciate what u giving to me~
no matter what's character what story u giving me~
it's really colourfull my life~ and let me get more experience to be more stronger than past ^^

他。

many thing come to the main road now~smile as much as i can~ stay with the one and wish that's really can stay for longer than others~ ^^sometime really feel that's i'm nt that worth to let he protect so much~ mayb in the fact i still dunno where i'm good at all~ smile at laugh ...nt to pretend in front of he also~ ^^
finally, he can accept ~ but i wish that's everything is nt being the reason 4 argue between us~
sorry for Be bcus i keep judge he by still loving his ex~ he really try hard to show up that's everything is false of my judgement~times go and go~ he really show me up he really care me... Somehw~ he giving me a feeling like kids~ but... in the end he really going to care me more than others~ hope everything go on like well~^^

bebe...post something relative to u~ ^^ happy bo? ... wish bebe can c~ ^^ hahaXD
wish i can get my way to with bebe... i wish i'm nt having the stupid feeling again~ i wish i really worth to let u care~(ish, i feel cold now... haha.... )

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school ruining down my mood nw~ i keep run over the school and keep look after for teacher~ somehow i really feel teacher is not going to care me ...haha bcus i really cant pay 100 % attention in class... busy this and that... most important is (chitchat with my LesboMate ( KarrMan) the darling ^^...haha... both of us is damn sot... and cant respected~i really slept during Mr.Ong period... since he having Speaking for other group. That's the best time to let me get a nap during school time... ^^
dunno some ridiculous feeling is appear in my mood for school nw... i feel like my time is pack~ but i still can handle the thing... just cant attend the dance class anymore...SAD~ tuition ,revision, meeting, activities, duty... really fully up my schedule~
wish my time can spend 48 hours perday~ so i can enjoy my day longer~ ( stupid general knwledge also knw one day just 24 hours)... MIMPI ~ ^^

going to prepare everything~ really run out of time edi><>

in the end... trying to giving out a words for bebe .... "YES" ...
haha... no any meaning of it...just wishing to answer u any question by this answer~ blek XD...
add on add on - wish the Horny Queen get wat she want for... ^^ God Bless u~ ^^